I had to come out
I was twenty when my parents bought me the ultimate “babe magnet” – a convertible Peugeot 206. They thought i needed a little leverage to push me out of my shyness with the girls. I knew it’s time to kick down the doors of my closet.
My sister already knew about me. Coming out to her was in my terms. I guess it’s usually easier to come out to your siblings first. One day, my sister told me that mother asked her about the success of the “babe magnet”. I knew this is it! enough is enough! today is the day…
With my father i knew it’ll be easy or at least easier. He was a devoted fan of “queer as folk” TV series back in those days so the ground was set. The minute he came back home, i told him. “Don’t worry we are all good” he replied and while he was climbing up the stairs to his room he mentioned that the only thing he is disappointed about, is that I didn’t clean the mess i left in his room…
With my mother it was much harder…I couldn’t face her directly so I wrote a letter and my brother gave it to her….she didn’t take it well. I was expecting her empathy, her full support. Instead she sent me to a shrink. She thought I was confused and that it would go away. She didn’t tell any of her friends. Our relationship became extremely hard. I would shout and act aggressively. I couldn’t accept myself until she would accept me. At some point, I had to get away from her until I came to terms with myself. Only then, I could bring her back into my life.
I guess it’s true what they say; once you go out of the closet, your parents go in. At least for my mom…
Then Boaz came… my lotto winning ticket!
It’s amazing how everybody loves him. Everywhere he goes he glows with positive energy.
My family adores him… sometimes I think they like him even more than they like me.
He is the ideal groom. And he loves me so much! He chooses me.
I never thought that anybody would love me this way.
If someone like Boaz loves me then I must be o.k.
We are together for four years now. Boaz wants children very much. I am not ready for it yet but for him I am willing… No more than two my love :)
-DAN ,33 דן